Ledger 18 - The Long Return

It’s been a very long time since I paid mind to this website and space I carved out for myself some time ago in graduate school. I myself am unsure what I even want to do with this corner of the internet. Will I just blither here? Will I position it to find jobs and creative outlets? Will I use it as a community hub?

I’ve updated my C.V. to reflect some of more more recent happenings and achievements - I have due to outstanding, relentless health issues and a crisis of the mind like no other, stepped away from corporate environments. It was not my proudest moment nor my most professional. Two near run-ins with death have me rethinking just about everything I thought I understood or held dear in my heart.

All that being said, I suppose it is in the ashes of things that I’ll grow something new. As my body struggles, I’ve found my way into creative endeavors that feed me deeply. I’ve begun teaching again which is a great return to something I always wanted to be doing. It feels nice to teach technical writing from the perspective of someone seasoned, rather than years ago when I had just begun that journey. Teaching feels authentic now, fraud syndrome cannot touch me. Similarly, where I was quite shy about performing before, almost dying has made it simpler to see that I have nothing to be scared of. Most certainly not my peers or strangers in an audience. These places I have become not fearless, just far less afraid.

Lots is brewing for the year in its beginning moments. I am almost hesitant, standing on the precipice of the unknown but I’ll be sure to try and report back as I witness and experience on my way down into the next chapter of my life. Cheers until then!